Hello there,

Only one tag to share today. Not very much, but alas, again something off the ‘to share shelve’, haha. I’m taking things slow these days but am in my creative flow again, feeling inspired. On the other hand i’m in a bit of reflective state because next week it’s one year ago my husband died and I became a widow. So much has happened since then! Pffff…….. truly I can write a book about the past year but it would definitely be a book with a happy ending. It’s amazing how happy I feel right now when I compare myself with last year around this time. I remember that a couple of hours before Jan died we were having our last heartfelt talk and he took my hand, and gave me his wedding ring in return. He then told me that when I would meet someone else, he was fine with it but that I should truly beware if he would be trustworthy and to be safe. I couldn’t believe he said that to me. Couldn’t even imagine myself with another man!!! So I told him directly, noooooo, I don’t want to hear about that. But he kept on pushing the message and told me to move on and be happy. He also always said to not stay with the dead, but go for life! So…… then one month later, after his funeral my life went into a rollercoaster with the aftermath of the funeral etc etc. So many things started happening out of the blue when it comes to romance. So much heartache, double feelings etc. Then finally in the beginning of this year I met my beautiful Nizaar. I still can’t believe in what kind of dream i’m living right now as it still feels so heavenly. I’ve never experienced such before, i’m simply honest about that. I was very happy with Jan and we were always together and in true love, but what I experience now with Nizaar is truly something else. So….. yes…….. a rollercoaster of a year passed by but it was all worth it. I found my freedom and I know and also have experienced that Jan is happy with Nizaar. Along these past months i’ve visited his grave and told him all about Nizaar and many times a bird or a butterfly came sitting by the grave! As if he winked to me that it was all good. That feels so wonderful! Even Nizaar understands and knows Jan has sent him in my life! Now, how beautiful is that! I feel so lucky and so blessed! So incredibly blessed, wow! Anyway, that’s a bit about my mood today. It’s a special time this time of the year. Amazing how fast a year has passed by. But it’s all as it should be. All God’s amazing plan. Thank you Lord!

Love and blessings

Ingeborg