Unbelievable……… one year ago my husband Jan-Willem passed away. I can’t believe i’m writing this. It’s all surreal this ‘time’-thing. Time is a farce! It’s doesn’t exist in the heart. Today is like yesterday and tomorrow. The feeling will always be the same. Now, i’m reflecting on the past year since he passed. I know he is happy where he is and I know he is happy for me and that I found new love. I know he’s always watching over me, protecting me and helping me when I ask him to. I’ve already experienced that many times the past year. I’m feeling happy and in peace today. I know it sounds unbelievable, but it’s the truth! And it is because he wanted me to celebrate life, not mourn at his grave, but chose life. I feel so blessed to have found new love now and even he understands and knows and feels that Jan wanted him to come into my life. Everything is connected! It’s all such an amazing experience and rollercoaster at the same time. So many emotions, but all special in their own way. I can’t go to his grave today due to a problem with my leg and not being able to drive my car, so I thought to write this little post for him and light some candles. He will always be a bright light in so many lives and dimensions!

Thank you Janneman for protecting me, guiding me, leaving me behind this well, preserving my well-being, always supporting me and cheering me up. You will forever be in my heart beautiful strong wolf!