I am so sad, i’m so angry, so disappointed in my family, in my neighbours, in so many companies, institutions, hospitals, my doctors. Nobody seems to know what love actually is these days. I have to go on the soapbox this morning and get this off my chest. Like the bible says in 1. Corinthians 13:

“Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous, it does not brag, and it is not proud. Love is not rude, it is not selfish, and it cannot be made angry easily. Love does not remember wrongs done against it. Love is never happy when others do wrong, but it is always happy with the truth. Love never gives up on people. It never stops trusting, never loses hope, and never quits.”

To me it was and still isn’t hard to love people. I am a natural lover, but like this bible verse also says….. Love seems to have its limits too as it ‘cannot be made angry easily’. Well…………. I know that is true, because after more than 50 years my limit has been reached, and I feel i’m as angry as God must be right now and for once i’m not going to hold back my feelings of anger anymore. I feel very close to God, have been my whole life, and tried to give my outer best. I got nothing but jealousy, mean spirited, game playing, narcissistic people one my path, like even my own mother (!) with here and there an exception of a true good human being. Those couple of people that were really good are the ones that really rise above all the other ones that i’ve met. I am a human being, like anyone else, with all my tempers and imperfections. I’m not doing everything right all the time, but I always, ALWAYS, have a vision of love with anyone I approach in life and am trying to seek the truth, day in, day out. Now, i’ve always tried to bond the family, tried to reunite (then being accused for being a manipulator, tssss), tried to give a good example, tried to forgive and strike a hand over my heart, when they didn’t really deserve it, but only to find out they just step over it as if nothing ever happened, and nothing really changed, and things just went on like before. They don’t find the respect for my/our feelings and don’t feel the need to tell us theirs so I/we could learn from things that we might have done wrong. People don’t learn from their mistakes, so it seems. And the worst thing is……………….. they don’t communicate anymore! And when you try you get bitched around like you’re a piece of garbage!

There are children who just let their father or mother, or grandpa’s or ma’s left to die alone in a care facility. And when they do manage to find ‘an hour’ to go over and visit them they are sitting there with the car keys in their hands, because ‘hey, time is money ey’! There are people who think the whole world is about them and forget their family, their loved ones, their friends, their neighbours. They don’t have time for love or a visit anymore. Oh yes, they are great professional preachers on love, and how you should do it, etc. They really know what’s best for you but don’t ACT like it themselves! I’m so pissed off with all the evil in this world. Do you know how evil this is? That you let your father just rot in his hospital bed while he is on the edge of life and death, or reïncarnation, whatever you believe in???? Do you know how rude it is that you don’t even care to ask ‘How are you doing’ after you finally decide to write some loved one after 8 years of no contact? And do you know what betrayal is when you don’t invite your aunt and uncle, or your own father to your wedding, while you invite the rest of the family, and leave them out. This while they haven’t done you anything wrong, but you did wrong to them? And do really think good people should stick around you when you are constantly playing sick mind games with them and talk/gossip behind their backs as if they are trash? And do you really think I am/we are that stupid that I/we don’t see your stupid games? Ha! Well here you have it. I/we SENSE YOU ALL. I/we SENSE ALL YOUR EVIL GAMES AND CHATTER BEHIND MY/OUR BACK. I’m/we are sick of you all! You really should be so ashamed of yourselves.

Good people who try to reunite the world, like President Trump, are being treated like the biggest devil on earth! Come on!!!! You are evil yourself for not seeking the truth! What did President Trump do wrong to you then? Can you proof his so called misbehavior? Are you ‘just’ believing what someone is talking about him behind his back? And did you verify this truth? Can’t you see he was and still is reuniting the world?! Seek for the truth, because he really is as far as I can see! Can’t you see what happened to Jesus, and don’t you recognize a pattern in that in what happened to him?! Well KNOW FOR SURE THAT HE WILL BE BACK AND THAT GOD WILL PUT YOU ALL STRAIGHT YOU AWFUL SICK LIARS. I’m so sick of you all. Do not come to me anymore, except when you can find the decency to say ‘I regret what i’ve done’ and find true love and understanding for each other. I hope you can set your Akashic records straight on time! You with your bla bla bla unity, love, honesty, consciousness bla bla. Give me a break! ACT LIKE IT instead of pushing your lies back under the rug. NOW! As God will come and you really will be set straight! We all will! Even I!

I am not perfect either, but I stand for my actions. I take full responsibility. Do you too?! I will keep on fighting for the truth. I’m a winner. And when I am wrong, or followed the wrong path, i’ll admit that courageously. I’m not perfect either. Most people are being decepted their whole lives anyway. But sometimes you can’t find more truth than you already did and have to give things the benefit of the doubt until new facts are found and prove differently. Time will tell what the ultimate truth is but one thing is a fact already: liars are losers!

May God bless you and bring you (and me) discernment and insight.

Let Love Be Your Guide

1 Corinthians 13

I may speak in different languages, whether human or even of angels. But if I don’t have love, I am only a noisy bell or a ringing cymbal. I may have the gift of prophecy, I may understand all secrets and know everything there is to know, and I may have faith so great that I can move mountains. But even with all this, if I don’t have love, I am nothing. I may give away everything I have to help others, and I may even give my body as an offering to be burned. But I gain nothing by doing all this if I don’t have love.

Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous, it does not brag, and it is not proud. Love is not rude, it is not selfish, and it cannot be made angry easily. Love does not remember wrongs done against it. Love is never happy when others do wrong, but it is always happy with the truth. Love never gives up on people. It never stops trusting, never loses hope, and never quits.

Love will never end. But all those gifts will come to an end—even the gift of prophecy, the gift of speaking in different kinds of languages, and the gift of knowledge. These will all end because this knowledge and these prophecies we have are not complete. But when perfection comes, the things that are not complete will end.

When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, and I made plans like a child. When I became a man, I stopped those childish ways. It is the same with us. Now we see God as if we are looking at a reflection in a mirror. But then, in the future, we will see him right before our eyes. Now I know only a part, but at that time I will know fully, as God has known me. So these three things continue: faith, hope, and love. And the greatest of these is love.